If you really knew me

you'd know that I enjoy blasting 80's music while I do the dishes.
                          I can't put down a book once I start it.
                          earphones gross me out.
                          I've never kissed anyone.
                          I have a horrible sense of direction.
                          sometimes I can't sleep because I'm worrying about nothing. everything.
                          I' terrified to speak at the open mic. final.
                          I am extremely lazy, especially this last term; I've lost all motivation.
                          I enjoy going to the grocery store.
                          I am a horrible dancer.
                          I love Disneyland.
                          my family is really disappointed that I decided to stop playing volleyball.
                          I just saw the new Godzilla movie and Godzilla rocks.
                          I have scoliosis. And I just had to look up how to spell that. that's embarrassing
                          I rarely cry, but when I do it's the controlled, silent kind.
                          my dad just threatened to spray mustard on the clothes that my brother left in the bathroom. That's not really relevant but I think it needed to be said.
                         I don't make things happen. I hope and wait for things to happen and that needs to change.
                         I don't really know how to talk to people.
                         I wish I could get tan. #gingerprobs
                         my room is a complete disaster right now, but I can't bring myself to clean it.
                         I love to go on walks. By myself and with my mom.
                         I don't actually know how many more days of school are left. #clueless
                         I don't know why I've been using hashtags in this post. #feelsright
                         I didn't graduate from seminary...
                         I regret quitting the piano, but I'll never tell my mom that because she said I would eventually feel this way.
                         I reallllly enjoy food. #eatingtapiocapuddingrightnow
                         I can feel myself being annoying, but I cant't stop with the hashtags. #sorrynotsorry
                         I didn't learn my ABC's until the end of second grade. My parents said I was more interested in singing songs about flowers.
                         I don't think my boss likes me.
                         I have other homework to do tonight, but I ain't gonna do it.
                         there was a time in ninth grade when I didn't really have any friends. I dreaded lunch time.
                         I never wear my retainer. #shizjustgotreal
                       
                       
                     
                   
                         I don't usually talk about myself.
                       

I Remember

I remember feeding the ducks breadcrumbs in the pond by our house in Murray.

I remember the lady with the three dogs that scared me, so I hid in our laundry room.

I remember getting lost at Cornbellies and nice ladies helping me find you. You were wearing a yellow shirt.

I remember reading Junie B. Jones late at night when I was scared.

I remember summer days when all I did was ride my bike.

I remember the Thanksgiving where Connor and I both wanted the wish bone. He got it and I cried, but you still gave me my wish. A barbie.

I remember watching Freaky Friday and School of Rock an insane number of times.

I remember crying when you didn't bring me home any Panda Express.

I remember the day that my Grandma Pat died.

I remember when I wanted glasses in third grade, so I faked the eye test and pretended like I couldn't see.

I remember absentmindedly singing the line, "if I ever lose my hands..." in Moonshadow by Cat Stevens when there was actually a person without a hand standing next to us on the bus.

I remember getting cornrows on the cruise we went on and it looking extremely hideous.

I remember doing weird experiments on worms with Chloe.

I remember dropping my tamagotchi in the toilet and being devastated.

Imagine beautiful thoughts sitting around you as you read